Far From the Home I love.

Michigan is Cold!
Colder than anything I have ever experienced before.
I don't understand, I'm from Scotland!

The mornings are so pretty though, I look through my skylight window and I can see the frost lightly dusting the trees, the light catches a branch and it shimmers! I love to wake up and go through this ritual, I have come to hate clouds as they interfere with this!

It's a lonely life out here. Very lonely, this computer is my friend during the 8 hour periods I spend alone each day! I am living in a loving home with kids that "adore" me and yet I still feel isolated. I know I'm different. I come from a different "culture" if I can call it that, but I don't see how that secludes me. It's like starting a new school or job, I feel that uncertainty in the pit of my stomach, somedays I wait till the kids leave and then cry for hours, others I want them to leave early so I can get online or take a walk. My feelings differ each day which I suppose is normal. I need to give this place time, it's so beautiful and I really want to stay.

Thanksgiving was immense. People in Britain don't celebrate "together", they celebrate in select groups, nothing is in unison. Whereas over here everyone is on the same team with one goal in mind. I sat at a table and had the most fantastic meal of my life, no kidding. Everything was prepared and cooked to perfection. I now have aquired a distinct love for pumpkin pie!
I got really emotional as everyone went round the dinner table giving thanks, little Julia said she's thankful for me - that got me!
Graceanne said she was thankful for aeroplanes or I wouldn't be able to be there, and Victoria said she was thankful for someone who was older than her yet younger than her mom who she could talk to about girl stuff without feeling embarrassed. I'm a new big sister brought to them by the Thanksgiving Fairy!! Overall It was a great day, it was like my official welcome!

To be honest, since then, everything has been an anticlimax and I know I sound like a brat for saying that but it has. Days are tedious, I visit Al's blog waaaaay too often, Youtube has grown old and I can't drink anymore chai tea! I want to sit in Tracys house, on her sofa, playing with Ellie, drinking Rose wine and watching X Factor or Strictly Come Dancing!
Or in London seeing kerry, al, gemma and abi....... I need to weigh up my options.

This is a fantastic opportunity - i reckon i should stick it. No more chickening out and then regretting it!!