CBT follow-up.

It was hard to go to a session and not talk about past experiences which are prime contributors to the way I am now. I am a firm believer in the phrase:

"What doesn't break you, makes you"

CBT doesn't work like that. You have to discuss the issues you have on a daily basis, for example:

Situation.
Someone I donnot know tries to start a conversation and I blow them off because I get anxious.

Emotional Feeling.
Rejected, guilty, low, unworthy.

Physical Feeling.
Sick, dizzy, faint.

Action.
Go straight home and avoid them.

CBT changes your way of thinking. If I were putting it into practice, the above situation would possibly go like this.

Situation.
Someone I donnot know tries to start a conversation.

Emotional Feeling.
Empathy.....I wonder if they are lonely

Physical Feeling.
I breathe and make myself comfortable.

Action.
Recipicate the conversation, thinking of the other person and how they feel- their impression of you.

The CBT table.

SITUATION

THOUGHTS

ACTIONS FEELINGS

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I personally must keep a diary of the issue I face on a daily basis which I think that therapy can help me overcome. I told this guy that I have already kept a dairy for over a year and all it contains are these hurdles. Therefore for the next few weeks I shall be focussing on these.
Its a very strange feeling and I don't really know how to describe it, it's like someone is looking in on my life like we do when we watch reality tv and they're poking and prodding me until they get an answer. Not in a bad way at all, it's just weird, new , different- definitely a change for the better!

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